Making exscuses

What do you do when a series of unfortunate major life events throws you off your stride? What if you asked for a bit of extra time on an assignment once or twice because you simply didn’t pay attention enough? (Or at least, that’s how it feels even if you had a good reason.) What if you feel like all your “get outta class free cards” are used up? And then something serious happens? Well, that’s something like what happened to me. I fell a bit behind in one class while trying to keep up in the others. And I tried to keep up. But here’s the thing: When something big happens, even though the time might have been there, sometimes, you just can’t do it. But what then? Don’t make my mistake; I tried to keep up and pretend like nothing happened. Well, not quite, but I tried to put of dealing with the situation at hand to try to keep up on school. That, I think, might have been a mistake. I should have asked ahead of time for some extra breathing space assignment-wise… before the night before a test. Before a paper was due. But I didn’t… in the end, I had to choose between a paper and a test… I took the one I was most likely to get done in time… and, as a result, I may have a lower grade. So what’s the point? The point is, if you really do have something huge and horrible happen, say, like, in my case, my grandma’s death… just five months after her husband, my grandpa, died… And for me, that meant staying with family friends from church for a week. Ask if you can take some extra time if you need it right away. Don’t try to tough it out and get it all done. Chances are you won’t, and if you do, it won’t be as good as it should be. So take my advice: Ask early. Even if it’s a no, it can’t hurt. Just something to think upon…

loss...

Fear not, I'll attempt to keep this out of the emotional muck that such things usually drag anything on this subject into... I consider 98% of writing such as "chicken soup for the soul" mush. That isn't to say it's bad, but it's not useful. Now, you may be wondering what I mean by loss. Well, what do I mean? I mean something very real: I mean loosing people. I mean loosing them to death. I’m not surprised if you're starting to think you should shut off the internet window and look at something involving Bilbo Baggins and Spock on YouTube... Like that... and go if you wish, it's quite worth the watching, but I ask that you return when you're done. Are you done? Good. I'm glad. On with the post now. Or not. Now that I looked at the video, I feel less inclined to look into deeper matters myself... Humans... this is what we do: We drown ourselves in what interests us while the deeper things lie dormant... Like loosing two grandparents in 5 months... The funeral today I cannot attend... like a sister's friend, shot and killed on the anniversary of the worst occurrence of your life... like fears and woes, insecurities and things that we all deal with... but I seldom speak of anything of myself, and, considering the fact that this is a public post, I don't think I shall delve too deeply... After all, if I don't trust anyone outside of my friend the notebook and word doc to hear me and not to speak, how can I trust those I don't know? There's a thought to leave with you who blog your deeper feelings and angry rants... If you wouldn't say it to anyone else in real life, why say it online?